A year Older...

30 years old.  Syukur Alhamdullillah.  Having a wonderful husband, a beautiful daughter, a cheeky son, the most understanding mom, a 'garang' dad who taught me to be very firm, a sister who will always be there when i need her, a brother who i know will always have my back, my greatest in laws, my friends that i know would always be by my side when i need them.

30 is just a number.  Hell Noooo!  haha.  Yes, mid life crisis shall begin at this very moment. haha. 

Ryan Iszkandar is 2 years old

Saalam Jumaat. 

On 24th of April 2012 my dearest son Ryan Iszkandar turn 2 years old.  A young man he is.  

Dearest Son,

When mommy found out i was pregnant with you, honestly both of us were shocked and happy at the same time. The shocking part was, Tasya is only 1 and I'm having another baby in 9 months.  Can mommy cope? Well the first 3 months weren't easy son, i was vomiting every hour.  But when i was in the 2nd, 3rd, 4th trimester, it was really fun.  You were so active in my tummy, as tho u were playing soccer.  hehe.
Well, when the Doctor told me it was a boy,  i immediately told daddy, my son's name will be Ryan.

Ryan u never failed to make mommy and daddy smile. Even your sister love you to bits.  Remember son, if anything happens to mommy and daddy, its your duty to look out for your big sister.  I know she can be very bossy at times, well son, i guess she got it from her momma.  :)

Ryan, mommy and daddy will always pray the best for you.  Be a Good Muslim, a Good son, well mannered and a humble person.  InsyaAllah things will be great for you. 

And Ryan, don't be notty.  Even if you are 21 years old, i will still chase you with a rotan if you're notty.  And Bare in mind, its Mommy who carried you 9 freaking months in my tummy. Be good Son!  :)


Lots of Love, hugs and kisses,
Mommy and Daddy. 

ps:  Aunty Mudd, please read this entry to Ryan eks.  :)

Masih Di sini...

There are so many things i want to write in here. A lot of things happened lately. Tapi how lah, even pada kala ini, aku masih terperangkap di office. Ingin ku lari, tapi workload aku memanggil-manggil. Ingin ku biar, arghhh, aku bukan jenis orang yang bole reti duduk diam if kerja masih bertimbun.

Lately ku rase 24jam bagai tidak cukup bagi ku, 7 hari seminggu ibarat datang dan pergi dengan begitu pantas sekali. Weekend aku gunakan sepenuhnya bersama my family...

Yayyy, esok public holiday.... Alhamdulillah.

Happy Birthday Xie Da......

It was my Beloved Sister's Birthday yesterday. 20 March 2012, she's 8 years older than me. She's my bestest fwen which will always be by my side when i need her.

Oh XieDa ku sayang,
Even we don't see each other that often but i want you to know i always have you in my mind.
Having you in my life since i was born was the best thing ever happened.
Yes! we do have our differences in liking things, for example, she hates to shop with me because it will take me hours buying a pair of shoes and it really pisses her off big time. hahahaha..

Oh XieDa ku sayang,
Do u ever knew, i always think you are a great person, and i really look up to you as my big sister.
I always think you are a great person at heart and I'm proud to be your little sister.
And i always envy your job coz you get to meet Aaron Aziz! ku jeolous.

And XieDa ku sayang,
Sorry sebab lambat wish, but i did call you kaann.. nanti we kuar makan makan eks, macam biase lah, i order you bayar.. hahah.. thats a big sister's job kaannn!!! pay after the little sister makan..kan kan?

I love you loads lah xieda!!!
Fara doakan xieda berbahagia hingga ke ujung nyawa, dipanjangkan umur dan di murahkan rezeki.

See my big sister, tu diaaaaaa..Maya Karin! What i meant was, sebelah Maya Karin. hehehe.

ps: fara kat office lagiiiiiiii..Urgh and its 11.22pm.
pss: kakak ku sangats garangggg, she once hit a gurl bcoz that gurl bullied me. :)
psss: in case anyone is wondering why issit fara, coz my whole family calls me fara.

Silver spoon or Plastic spoon?

How do we categorize a person or shall i be more specific a woman if she's materialistic or a gold digger?

Does anyone believe in true love anymore? Do you reckon girls will go for guys who rides a Honda Kapcai C70 rather than going after a guy who drives a Honda Civic Type R?

(aku, confius)

But we still can use the term 'woman needs to be taken care off' kan?? Soooo, i don't see the part of being materialistic or gold digger is wrong kaaaann? Guys! women needs to be taken care off, Remember that!
So you better work freaking hard, if not, you will be single for the rest of your life? hahahaha... (bias sungguh my statement)

Akan tetapi, ade jugak wanita-wanita di luar sana yang tidak langsung memandang kebendaan, itu pilihan masing-masing. Ibarat, susah dan senang akan ku redah lautan api demi mu oh sayangku! (aku memang salute kaum hawa sebegini)

As for my personal and most honest opinion based on my 29 years of experience living and breathing, i memang memilih sikit bab berkawan dengan lelaki. Coz before i left for my university, my mom whispered to my ear and she said 'Gurl, your an adult now, what ever decisions you make will make a difference in your future'. And mom did not ended it there, she whispered again and said 'You make your bed, You lie on it'. Mom left me speechless, coz i hate making my bed, but i do love lying on it!!

Well, to keep the story short, i married someone who comes from a great family. A family who appreciates one another very much. If you are wondering if my husband is a millionaire and drives a ferrrari or x6 and bought me a mini cooper as my hantaran, teetttttttttt........you are sooooo wrong. Haha.
He is one super cool guy who works his ass out to give the world to us. One hardworking dude I've ever met in my entire life!

Tapi cinta kami bukan lah selalu manis ibarat gula-gula mentos, we do quarrel thru out our relationship. Well, we make out and we move on. :)

Persoalannya sekarang, adakah saya dari golongan materialistic atau sebaliknya?

Okay fine, aku admit lah, aku memang materialistic. Alasan aku sangat simple. Its not for me, but its for my kids. Haaaaaa... and my husband knows about it, i told him wayyyy before we got married.
I said to him 'Yes i like you a lot, and i admire every inch of you but u must know that I'm gonna marry you because i know you will be a very good dad to our babies and you will feed us good food'. (i can't remember whether i was saying it to him or giving instructions? heheh)

So, gurls out there, being materialistic tak salah if you have a very solid reason for it! but don't get me wrong here k. Being in love with someone is a feeling that you can't justify. In my case, both of us complement each other. Both of us work really hard to give the world to our kids. (Dear Tasya and Ryan, when you can read, you are soo reading this entry!)

Just like Yuna's 'Terukir Di Bintang Lyrics' and it goes like this....

Jika engkau minta intan permata

Tak mungkin ku mampu
Tapi sayangkan ku capai bintang
Dari langit untukmu

Jika engkau minta satu dunia
Akan aku coba
Ku hanya mampu jadi milikmu
Pastikan kau bahagia

Hati ini bukan milik ku lagi
Seribu tahun pun akan ku nanti
Kan kamu

Sayangku jangan kau persoalkan
Siapa dihatiku
Terukir di bintang
Tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu

ps: Well, that's life, some are born with a silver spoon in the mouth and some are born with a plastic spoon in the mouth.

Run Lisaaaaaaaa runnnnnnn......

I wake up as early as 5am almost every morning, wait for my Suboh prayers, once done, i will change to my fitness outfit.

i will go running at 6.15 am, run 6km in an hour. Then head back home to get Tasya ready for school and I'm off to work. Tiring? Not so lah, its all about the will powerrrr baybehh...

If i don't go for running, i will do workout, mostly abs, core workout. And if i don't run or workout, i will wake up feelinggg sooooo guilty.

That's usually my routine from Monday to Friday. For Saturdays, i usually don't do any workouts, except for folding clothes, washing clothes and the usual Lisasurirumah chores. On Sunday, i will usually run at BTP in the evening.

Certain things in life, you can't just buy them off the shelf, you need to work your a** out to get what you want. I'm still very very far away from what i want. But at least i tried rather than bitching about it and not doing anything kaannnnnnnnn??? (oopssss, did i say that out loud?)

mypinkNike runners just makes me runs as if I'm running in the air :)

Me, my right brain.

You know when you miss someone badly and you can't have them because they are super duper busy.
Even when they are right next to you but they seemed to be very far away.

Gosh, i miss you.

When i look into your eyes,
you give me goosebumps,
But you're just far,
Far enough for me to run and catch you,
but i just can't,
afraid i might fall,
Falling won't hurt much,
but the scar will last forever.

Gosh, i honestly miss you.

I will always love you, every day, every night till my last breath.

ps: a dearest fwen of mine told me, if we are upset or pissed, the right brain will start functioning and we will tend to write creative things, but now i'm not even pissed or upset??? errr, all my 29++ years of living and breathing, out of a sudden this right brain is functioning ... Alhamdullillah. :) pss: this entry has nothing to do with anyone even if the person is alive or dead. as i said, my right brain is functioning quite well these days... :)